Sometimes, I hope i just breakdown.

Holding back all this,

Far too heavy load for me.
Who is the one that tell me to think positively? They dont even know whats the feelign of getting stuck situation whereby, when things really happened, Much clarify or even lying cant get you through. A situation whereby there is not positive side for you to see. Hopes completely shattered when you donteven know why. Heart so frigging out of place but it is still right there, At your left. But, who knows it actually got stuck there. I want retrieve the heart i lost but the door is locked, By you. I never even understand whats with you and u give the death sentence. Dont give a shit anymore for everthing That obivously are extremely ridiculous for me. Sick of you denying, Acting stm, End up blaming me. Whats hurts the most, Is the freak change. whats wrong wit you. Oh man. Cannot take it. Just tell me. Why always refuse to allow my to clear my doubts. Through others, i can only know what you thinking. But why when i ask u, U must react so vigirously? I hit on the nail? no, i never even mention that. You scold me over that. Ignore me forever. I trust u, Will do it. Hecking me is your best hobby.
So what if im still not sure. It just hurts. but, You'll never know, i can tell noone.
Once ignored, Forver ignore.