Thursday, May 20, 2010 4:51 AM
Pink bisector in my life,
You're my midpoint.

Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
I will never have this mega courage again.
Is like, nothing more like the past. Even Memories are pushing me away.
I may be sickening, i may be fierce, i may be hot tempered, i maybe dontknow how to interact with you, I may not be a expert in love, i maybe just fucking ugly, i may be disgusting, perhaps you're disgusted by me, Perhaps you are sick of the sight of me, Perhpas you treat me like invisible, Perhaps i am a pest to you. i may be pushing you away, But right now i really dream that you can give me a hug from behind, It may be short, Even if you will still walk away eventually, i really wish for the frigging moment.
That frigging impossible instance.
I hope you love me, hoped you loved me.
Though you knew, Once upon a time.
edit/
All the Dynamite's fault, how can it sound so duper nice.
Without any reason,
every beat of the bass , every single word of lyrics & every note of the melody,
Just damn it hit this mega hard on my left chest, it makes memories flood,
Like suddenly mind went nowhere or maybe somewhere where i found no way out.
The faded or perhaps abandoned images raced through my blackout mind.
They keep flashing, like a frigging slideshow with no ending.
I have a sudden urge to hug you, do you know that?
every frigging sight of you makes me panic, makes me alert, makes me wanna hug you, makes me want to runaway, makes me wanna ask you why why why, makes me wanna know you better, makes me push you away, makes me do things an an unclear mind.
You know the pain when your mind is literally dontknow what to do when scenes of you and him start to run across your eyes, But you still must act normal, like you feel nothing, just like a normal classmate, Even you see him will stun tio and stone there in total blank mind, you must continue to chat with ur frens, walk forward and finally walk by him.
For an instance,
like everything freeze
when he walk past you
and got this unknown feeling
that everything had moved on
except you.
The only and single one.